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Friday, May 30th, 2008
8:09 pm
i kinda sorta forgot that i had this thing. hmm.

i remember i have it about once every year, when i do an semi-annual post. or when something exceptionally awesome happens.

well, something exceptionally awesome has happened. i was able to carry two babies in my uterus for 35 weeks and 3 days!

bella susan was born on may 6th at 8:34AM, weighing 5lbs, 2.5oz. her "little" brother (little by timewise, certainly not by weight) dominik thomas was born at 8:35AM, weighing 6lbs, 8.5oz. dominik had some troubles breathing when he was first born, largely due to the fact that he had a double knot in his umbilical cord and a nuchal cord (cord wrapped around the neck), and because they were born a little early. so he needed to be transfered from general to cmc's NICU, where he stayed for 8 days. (the worst 8 days of my life, by the way...) but now they both are doing well, happy, healthy and strong. i have tons of pictures of them on my myspace (www.myspace.com/allezouellet). so check them out. bella is beginning to look more like me, but dominik is by far a clone of his father. brett practically spit him out! LOL

i've never been more happy, tired, and in love - all at the same time.

and, oh yes, i'm done. no more preggos for me! as a matter of fact, i start my birth control pills on sunday. yippee!! ;)

until 2009...

Current Mood: thankful
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Friday, November 17th, 2006
1:08 pm
well, this has gone grossly neglected....
so i see that i have not updated livejournal for almost 11 months now. i blame part of this on the newest trend of MySpace, and how i have become horribly addicted to it. the other part i blame on pure laziness, and that there's been a lot going on....

but anyways, i guess i can give you the short version.

* we did move back from hershey, and though i don't regret moving home, i do regret leaving my job at hershey. i loved it there, and i miss the people there so much. part of me wishes i did take them up on their offer to go on the weekender program, where you only work 3 weekends a month. but, then again, winter would be a bitch. sometimes i do find myself saying, "well, maybe someday we will go back to hershey." then other days i say "nope. we're home." i'll feel better when all our friends are back home, i think. but we are happy back here.

* we bought the old house i used to live in off my parents. ideally we are buying it to live in now, then maybe rent it or sell it in the future, because brett's dream has been to build our own house. we will see what happens down the road. for now, we are taking advantage of the fact that we bought the house at a GREAT deal, and are fixing it up to be our own. so far, it's pretty awesome. having the mortgage and bills to pay? not-so-awesome. :)

* my nephew dylan thomas was born on may 3rd. he looks JUST like my brother. poor baby. and kelly had her baby, riley may on may 10th. they are both too cute for words, and i love them both sooo much. kelly asked me to be riley's godmother, and i was more than honored.
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yep, they're pretty much awesome.

* brett and i got married!! YEAHHH!! it was fucking amazing. september 15, 2006. the day went surprisingly smoothly, and our honeymoon in florida was outstanding. so, yeah, i have a husband...and i'm a wife. wow.

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i love him more than a fat kid loves cake. :)

* so what's the next step after you graduate college, start your career, buy your house, and get married? yeah, we're working on that step, now too. ;)

so i guess that's it. but if you really want to keep up to date of the life of me, go to MySpace and join. come on, do it....all the cool kids are!



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Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
6:10 pm
Good-bye, Chocolate Town....
Ok, well time to close yet another chapter in my life...

We are moving back to Wilkes-Barre in 5 days.

Life in Hershey was amazing. Brett and I will never regret making the decision to leave when we did. We met a lot of amazing friends that we PROMISE we will keep in touch with/visit (hey, with HersheyPark right there, there is NO excuse!). We learned a lot about each other and ourselves. We realized that we actually can stand living together and that the little things that we do that irritate each other really make us closer.

Hershey Medical Center is one of the most amazing hospitals I have ever had the honor of stepping into. Penn State Children's will forever have a soft spot in my heart. The people I worked with taught me so much, and for the first time ever, I feel confident in my skills as a nurse. I promise to keep all of you up-to-date with e-mails, cards, and updates about the Baby Penguins (well, I wouldn't want to disappoint any of you!)

For the friends we are leaving behind here in Hershey, we will miss you all terribly. Know that Wilkes-Barre is just a mere 90some miles up I-81, and you're always welcome.

So, for the next chapter, Brett and I have new jobs, new obstacles, new experiences. I will start Feb. 6th in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit (PICU) at Geisinger Danville. I need a year's experience there before I can go back to grad school at the University of Scranton for my nurse anesthetist. I still cannot imagine me doing anything other than caring for children and their families, and the letters I have gotten from patients and families indicate I may actually be good at what I do.

Brett is still a manager, still in the restaurant business, at least for now. He's not sure what he wants to do next, but he knows I am here to support him in whatever he decides. For now, he's extremely happy. And I am, too.

So...we tried it. We tried the "move away from NEPA" thing. Which, we both still agree, you need to try at least once in your life. But, in the long run, our hearts both belong here, with our friends and family. We will be having a family of our own soon (hopefully not THAT soon, no more scares, please...my wedding dress fits perfectly now!), and I cannot imagine raising them anywhere other than here with our families and friends by our sides. We are getting married in less than 8 months, my girls are beginning to plan my bridal shower for July, and I can't wait to rub my Kelly's belly. :) Which, Kelly, I have found a onesie that says "don't mess with me, my aunt is a nurse" that I need to buy for you and Pat :)

Our plans, for now, are to live with my mom for a short while, because we are looking to buy a house...My old house in Edwardsville was considered an option for a brief while, but we are still not sure. We also saw some very nice houses in Nanticoke, which would be better for me being closer to Danville. We even considered building a modular home if we got land. For now, anything is possible. We will be living in our OWN house by summer, our wedding present for each other. <3

So, if you need us in the next 6 days, our internet may be gone, so call our cell phones. The apartment phone will be working up until Feb. 1st.

Bye, Hershey....it's been something. :)

~Sarah and Brett :)
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Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
4:26 pm
i need help! :)
home in 20 days...just thought i'd add :)

i actually anyone out there reading this to help me out...nothing major, just wedding stuff.

we are making cd's as favors for the wedding (so there, all of you who will be going know what you're getting. surprise!). we have almost all of the songs we want to use, but we still need a good mother/son dance song for brett. he can't choose and i don't have any more ideas...so here are the songs we are using, along with the songs that will be on our cd...any suggestions?

plus, anyone know where the cheapest place is to by blank cd's and cases? and if there is any particular software for making cd labels that is best?

thanks, i'm computer retarded :)

1. "from this moment on" shania twain and brian adams (that's our wedding song)
2. "could not ask for more" edwin mccain (our bridal party song)
3. "crash into me" dmb (for bradley haha)
4. "i hope you dance" leanne womack (for my grandfather and i to dance)
5. "you raise me up" josh groban (song for my mom and i)
6. "always" bon jovi (cuz i love bon jovi, duh.)
7. "heaven" dj sammy (for all those in Heaven...)
8. "wonderful tonight" eric clapton (cuz we will ALL be looking mighty fine :) lol)
9. "100 years" five for fighting (cuz brett used to always say he'd love me for '100 years till forever, babe.' damn he's cute.)
10. "amazed" lonestar (i've always liked that song)

soooo...any suggestions appreciated :)

and if i was kinda short with you over the new year, i apoligize. i found out lots of bad stuff on new years day....one of my kids from the hospital passed away, and my father was being a dick on top of it all.

now that's all. :)
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Friday, December 30th, 2005
12:52 am
it's good to be here....
i went out tonight and i did absolutely nothing.

and i haven't had that much fun in soo long.

i did standard valley things: go to old navy, b&n, the penguins store, grotto pizza to watch the pittsburgh game (they won, by the way, 6-2), drive around kingston, stopped at curry, almost got brad to go to adult world, and went to wal-mart.

i so do miss it here, as freakin' ridiculous as that sounds.

and i don't want brad to go back to north carolina....

*sigh* one month till brett and i are home....and we can't wait.


Current Mood: cold
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Thursday, December 29th, 2005
10:14 am
nepa uodate
today i'm home in NEPA for a couple more hours, but gladly i can say that i will be home for good in about a month, and that's exciting :)

last night i had "date night" with brad, we went for dinner (which i eventually threw up at the game, but that's another story...), got brad fitted for his tux for the wedding (size 15 shoes? HA!), watched the pens bitch-slap hartford and THE SALMON GET ANOTHER SHUTOUT, and then went to see "the producers," which we both found to be hysterical, partly because i looove matthew broderick and brad loooves will ferrel. but it was a good night, and when i got home i was sooo tired i crashed before i could change out of my clothes.

now today i have to go back home, although i don't want to, because brett has work 3-close so i won't get to see him and i will be coming home for nothing. i am trying to talk brad into coming down to see hersheypark christmas candylane and the light show. i think he's thinking about it...god i hope i get called off of work tomorrow, i really don't wanna go :)

i love coming home and seeing everybody. it truly is awesome. especially brad. that retard cannot go back to north carolina. i will not allow it. sigh. okay, i will allow it only because he's promising to move back when he's done.

yesterday the only thing i had to eat was some chinese, which i threw up at the game, and then a couple of handfuls of popcorn at the movie. today my belly hurts even more, making me afraid to eat. grr. this sucks.

ok, now i gotta go sit down and decide when i am going to head back to chocolatetown.

happy holidays!

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Thursday, December 15th, 2005
11:49 pm
i found this while packing/cleaning, and although it won't mean much to many of you, it means beyond this earth to me....

i just feel the urge to type it out and share it...just so that everyone out there knows how much of an awesome friend Raa was...

This is the front page of "Sarah Splat's Birthday Comic Book," a gift that Raa had made for me, March 13, 2002.

"A Forwarding Note from Raa *insert Raa's drawing of herself, with pink spiked hair*

After realizing just how poor I am, I decided to make you a birthday present. But what could I possible make? Hint: You're reading it now and have already passed the title page. Yeah, it's a comic book!

But what adventures will we have? Do I make it true to our lives or outrageous adventures? You'll just have to wait and see. I will too since I haven't done much more than these two pages.

No matter what, you'll love it. I know so. I am having so much fun making this. Ahh....a freshly sharpened pencil...ready to take on the new words my brain manifests. Ohh! Did you like that word, pencil? He's nodding 'Yes.'

So here it goes. I hope you love it. I hope you hang onto it for years and years. I hope that this is secretly one of the best presents you have ever received. I hope we will always be best friends. I hope the cat doesn't decide to pee on this. Okay! Turn the page!

Love, Raa"

Anyone who knew Raa can picture her saying all of that, in that exact way. Sentimental without the mushy stuff. It was how everyone around her knew that she would do anything for her friends, but she didn't have to shower anyone with sweetness to do it.

Someday I will need to scan the pages of this and post them on here. It's beyond hilarious. She was so fucking talented.

I thought this was all supposed to get easier...

2005 sucks.
2006 better be a LOT better.

....i think i may be just a tiiiiny bit hormonal.

Current Mood: just sad...
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Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
10:44 pm
cancer is a bitch.
cancer is a bitch. neuroblastomas fucking suck.

in a perfect world, a beautiful toddler does not get sick with cancer. cancer all through her body. cancer that they thought they cut out when they got rid of her tumor only to find out that it spread everywhere along her spinal column.

now, as i pass the hallways of my hospital, i see her parents...so young, so fresh, so in love with each other and their baby....and they were just told today that there are no second opinions, no alternative therapies, her cancer has morphed into a vicious beast that cannot be controlled. she is now in "palliative care" - nonagressive treatment for comfort. she will go home this week.

one time this summer, while i took care of this girl, she gave me a Care Bear sticker because I was her nurse. that Care Bear sticker is on my name badge.....now it's never gonna leave.

cancer fucking sucks. did i mention that?

this is the WORST part of my job.

while you're reading this, go to www.thon.org. just get a glance at these warriors that i get to be with everyday. i should consider myself lucky and honored to have known them all. they're all so beautiful...

i hate feeling so unglued.
i hate having no control.
i hate cancer.

and still no more news on the "other thing" yet.

Current Mood: heartbroken
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Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005
4:31 am
live from the hershey med computers....
stuck here at work at 4:31am because i offered to work a night shift...i have been up for 23 hours now. sleep is very overrated...

i haven't been sleeping much anyways, since i found out brad got hurt...he's in a hospital in roanoke, virginia...he got in a nasty car accident on his way back home with his mom...i finally felt better once i heard his voice. but i want to see him sooo bad. i want to see him, hug and kiss him, and then smack him for making me worry like this. he wants brett and i to come down...oh bradley james tyler.....we're going to see dave matthews in 2 weeks, and you can't be sick for dave!

so guys, whoever you do pray to, please pray extra for brad and his mom...

brad, i love you babe. <3

i can't lose any more best friends this year....

Okay, ANYWAYS, on to the happier news of the week...Kelly will be married in *looks at watch* about 45 some odd hours (hey, its 4:30 in the morning, i can't do math). so that is happy and exciting news!

had my second interview for that trauma case manager position at danville, it seemed promising, so now brett and i are seriously looking for a new place to live.

ouch. i ate food and now my belly hurts bad.

ok, call bells are a'ringing....
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Thursday, November 17th, 2005
2:05 am
quick update before bed...

1. geisinger danville called back to tell me two things: I was offered a PICU (Pediatric ICU) nursing position and they want me to come back for a second interview for the Pediatric Trauma Case Manager position. I REALLY REALLY want the trauma position, so this excites me greatly that they are considering me seriously enough for interview number 2. this time, the interview is with the head trauma surgeon. wish me luck, i need it!

2. this means the move closer to home will take place soon! hope to be home before i turn 23 (march). that's the goal.

3. almost all of our save the date cards for the wedding are ready to be sent out. I underestimated my stamps though...i need 40 more.

4. i am so broke and i will be even more broke when we move back home. but i have a feeling i will be a hundred, no wait, a thousand, no wait, a MILLION times happier when we do go back.

5. i have my wedding gown. it is at my mom's house. i tried it on twice already for no reason :)

ok, time for bed.

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Sunday, November 13th, 2005
1:56 am
Dear God...

Please let that interview at Geisinger Danville go as well as I thought it did. Please let them call me back and tell me they want a second interview so I can be even more stellar. Please let me get a job offer soon....anywhere back home....soon. But I REALLY love this one, God.

And, please God, let Brett get a job that actually allows us to see each other. I only get to see Brett briefly and that's sad since we live together. This month we have 2 days off together. Two. One was today for Ella's baptism and one for Kelly's wedding. And when I do see Brett all I do is cry in his arms because I am so miserable and I miss him and I need him. Thank you, God, for giving me him because my life would be nothing without him.

And, please God, let us find our dream house. Not some $350,000 house with fancy furniture. Just our "home." We want our "home sweet home" and I think we deserve it.

And, please God, let these next 306 days fly by so I can finally be Brett's wife and he can finally be my husband.....God, I do love what you have given me and I am eternally thankful.

But, if you could grant me these few things, I would be a million times happier Sarah.


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Sunday, October 30th, 2005
10:57 pm
happy halloween....
It's been seven long months since you left us.

Your gravesite is covered with all different types of Halloween stuff...

Pumpkins, ghosts, flowers that would be making you sneeze your head off, black cats...and a "Forever Baghead" necklace...I wish I know who left that there for you because that was an extremely awesome gesture. I'm too selfish to give mine up.

I brought you that black cat on the stick...I tried so hard to find a cat that looked like Ani, but Ani is so beautifully original that I couldn't.

I wait for a sign from you...and maybe I'm just not looking hard enough, or maybe I'm looking too hard.

I should be over this by now.

I mean, plenty of people have had a best friend die, right?

I rented "Halloween" tonight and watched it. And I cried most of the way through. I remember 2 years ago when you wouldn't tell anyone what you were going to be for Halloween, and you were so proud of yourself for coming up with this awesome costume. And I remember my doorbell ringing and coming to the door and finding you there, dressed up as Michael Myers and I damn near fainted. Dickies, mask, real knife and everything. You even had that psychopath walk down cold.

Everyone keeps saying "She's there in spirit." But I'm fucking selfish - I want you HERE. I want you HERE to watch Kelly get married. I want you HERE for halloween and christmas. I want you HERE to see Kelly and Pat's baby be born. I want you HERE to watch Brett and I get married.

I just want you HERE.

Happy Halloween in Heaven, Angel Baghead. I love you....


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Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
7:20 pm
everybody warned me...

"working with kids who have cancer is one of the hardest jobs ever."

and i said to myself, no because i am helping them, being with them, caring for them and yes, some die, but some live, and those some that live makes this job worthwhile.

This has been a really rough week. I have cared for children that have absolutely broken my heart, more so than usual. One: a toddler who was beaten and sexually abused and continually asked me if i was going to hit her for being bad, and two: my buddy Morgan, who is battling leukemia and is now in the PICU on a ventilator and they don't know if she's going to make it. I've taken care of Morgan many times, she makes us all chocolate :) and she's such a sweet girl, a beautiful young woman.

How can our world be so fucked up that many responsible couples who are dying to have children can't because of fucked-up laws regarding adoption procedings, yet assholes can beat and molest the children they should be blessed to have?

And how can I believe in God, who I used to believe in with my whole heart and soul, when He has the capacity to let these things happen, like letting a beautiful 16 year old girl die from leukemia?

...like letting millions of children hurt?

...like letting Raa die.....

Questions that I know I cannot possibly understand because He must have some sort of master plan that my puny little mortal brain cannot comprehend. Morgan may never go to her prom and get those giggly feelings on that special day, graduate from high school or college, get married.....and her family will suffer with her.

They say the burnout rate in Pediatric nursing is the highest of all nursing fields. And I know Peds is my passion, I love kids...but this hospital is full of the sickest, and I'm not sure how much my already vunerable state of mind can take.

I miss home. I miss my mom and family. I miss my friends.

I'm going to be an aunt soon. Times two. Both babies are due in or around May. And I want to be there....

It has been hitting me more and more that Kelly is getting married in less than a month. My best friend, the girl that has been there through my everything, is getting married. And in less than a year, she will be a mommy. An awesome mommy, I might add. And the emotion of it all has been kinda taking over me...I'm happy, thrilled to be exact, but it's so...big. The kind of big that I always imagined Raa to be at....This is the first major event in our lives that Raa will not be at...

Brett and I are going out to dinner tonight, and we are going to have a talk.

We're talking about when we are coming home.

Current Mood: blah
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Thursday, October 20th, 2005
1:18 pm
For your viewing pleasure....
Here is our engagement pictures...the first one that shows up when you click on the link is the one we are most likely putting in the paper to announce our engagement.

We think they turned out really nice :)

Actually, Brett could care less...he's not into the whole "wedding preparation" thing. He would have rather slept in today.

Ohhhh well. Enjoy :)


PS - Brett wants the ones in the hockey jerseys to go in the paper....haha

Current Mood: happy
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Sunday, October 16th, 2005
7:41 pm
Loooooong update....
Interesting things have happened since I last updated. I use the word "interesting" because it's all a mixture of good and bad.

First off, today was my first day out of nursing orientation. First day of me being the nurse BY MY LONESOME. It was pretty awesome, I felt like a real nurse for the first time ever. I signed up for mucho overtime this week, and this month is my month on nightshift, so this week's sleep schedule is gonna blow.

Secondly, I got to see my B-rad this past weekend. We went to the Hershey/Baby Pens game, in which I wanted to jump and cheer for Michel many times, but could not due to my Bears t-shirt I wore to piss of the men I sat in between (who now think it's hysterical to call Lefebvre "Bill" because it pisses me off to no end). Then we went to KoKomo's for wings and beer and catching up. The next day Brett had work so Brad and I went for lunch and shopping then I made the boys dinner for when Brett got home. When Brad left, I cried and kissed him and told him not to go...and I think Brett molested him. But it's only a month till Thanksgiving :(

Then there was the shit hitting the fan, with appropriate sound effects, of course.

Most of you reading this journal have known about my "woman" problems I have had since forever. For those who don't, here's the long story short: I have endometriosis, which causes like, ten times more lining in my uterus than normal. This causes scar tissue, pain, and possible other major problems. Last November I had surgery to take off all that junk and since then I have felt fine. On Monday while I was making dinner for Brad and Brett, I began to feel really dizzy and nauseous. I went to the bathroom and I was bleeding. A lot. And I wasn't supposed to be. So, that sucked. And then the next day I had sharp shooting pains on the right side of my belly. When Thursday came around and the pain was getting worse, I headed to a gyno in Hershey who sent me to the ER to rule out ovarian cysts or appendicitis. I had been throwing up a lot by this point, and was severely dehydrated. That caused my IV to infiltrate (non-medical terms: leak out of my vein into my skin) and now I have a 5 inch bruise on my right arm. Tests showed something wrong with my ovary on the right side, and the pelvic exam (gross.) showed I had an infection. They gave me a shot (ow.) of an antibiotic, some Morphine through my IV, and precriptions and I was on my way home, only to have to follow up with a doctor the very next day. I went home to my gyno that knows my history and he ran some more tests and he believes that my right fallopian tube is turning in twists due to adhesions, which would account for the stabbing pain. So the probable plan is to finish my antibiotics and get another surgery to fix my tube. Again. I hate this. I just want to have kids and then have all the plumbing removed. I hate being sick and I hate missing work. Ugh.

Brett works, like, all the time. He is making good money and he's happy with his job, but he hates these long hours as much as I do. And we're both missing home a lot. Damn, I never thought I would say that. I spent so long trying to LEAVE the Valley that I never thought that I would be looking for a way BACK. So, most likely, Brett and I will be moving back closer to home after we get married next year. We both want to raise our family closer to our families. So far, all of the friends and family we have told are searching for ways to send us home sooner. :) Sorry guys, but we both like our jobs a lot down here, and we want to become more established in our fields (I want more experience as an RN, Brett wants to be with Red Robin long enough so he can ask for a transfer) so our plan is to stay till we get married and then come back home to start our life together. I'm looking into Geisinger Danville, which is a hospital I was originally looking at back when I was deciding where to live after graduation. I need to work with kids. I love Pediatrics. And *drumroll* I'm going to grad school in 2007. Most likely at Miseri. I wanna be a nurse practitioner in women and children's health. So right now, Brett and I are working our asses off, paying off some bills, working mucho overtime and saving up. We got a wedding to pay for, too. :)

Well, kids, that's a lot of crap to read. Go eat some ice cream and watch NHL Center Ice, like ME!


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Friday, October 7th, 2005
2:20 pm
Caron Starting?! Oh boy!!
My dear and beautiful cousin Laura has informed me that rumor has it that Sebastien Caron will start in goal tonite against Carolina.

Show 'em how it's done, Salmon!


Damon's in Harrisburg tonite with some friends from the crazy Peds floor of Hershey Med, and hopefully the game will be on TV....

...if not I have to race home and catch it on NHL Center Ice. The beauty of digital cable!


This weekend is full of work, both Saturday and Sunday, which would normally depress me, but B-rad is home in NEPA now and is coming to Hershey Sunday morning! Then we're going to see the Baby Pens/Bears game at Giant Center and hang out all day Monday since I have it off.

Things are starting to get a little better before they get worse...

Current Mood: calm
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Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
11:20 pm
the Michel Ouellet icon has resurfaced, in honor of the day that I (and many others, I'm sure) have been waiting for long enough...

October 5th, 2005...

The day the NHL came back.

yippee hockey!!

BOO to the penguins losing. I hate New Jersey.

But apparantly Baby Pens kicked ass and Michel got tons of assists.

Allez, Allez, Allez...

Hockey's Alive in 2005 :)

Current Mood: happy
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Saturday, October 1st, 2005
11:34 pm
i feel like i work all the time anymore...but i guess it's good because i need money.

...especially after brett got the speeding ticket WHICH SUSPENDED HIS FUCKING LICENSE!!!!!

sigh. i love brett more than life itself, but that was his first night spent entirely on the couch.

so now after paying almost a 200 fine (oh, can i borrow the money from you, sarah? GRRR!!!) and the bills for the month, i am left with not really any money. lovely.

things are going really shitty with my family right now. nothing that i can really talk about here though, since not many people know what's going on. nobody is fighting...yet. but they will. and things are shittier than ever with my father. yeah, my father who told my mother that he wouldn't even bother to open the invitation to my wedding unless it was addressed to him AND his new girlfriend. fuck you, DAD. fuck you and the 21 years that i thought you gave a damn. lately i've been putting up a really tough front, joking about stuff and attempting to brush it off. well, two nights ago, i had no room left for "tough fronts." i completely lost it....and i'm still trying to get myself all back...

and this time of year...the fall weather, leaves, october, HALLOWEEN...this time of year was somebody's absolute favorite time of year. the girl who kept her halloween costumes a secret until the very last minute for the sheer effect of surprise. she and i would throw awesome halloween parties, with spooky music. and let's not forget the SLEEPAWAY CAMP halloween movie specials!!

raa, it's your time of year. halloween is like your christmas. enjoy it up there....

...and you have a new person to look out for. i'm not putting it on here, but you know who i am talking about...look out for mommy and baby. cuz mommy's pretty fucking awesome :)

*sigh* i think it's just this time of year...

Current Mood: sad
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Sunday, September 25th, 2005
12:24 am
holy shit i got a tattoo....

no seriously....

yeah, i honestly can't believe i did either!

pictures will be posted...

baghead. happy now, raa? :)
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Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
7:34 pm
back to the 570....
ok, so brett is getting ready to open the new Red Robin in Carlisle, and he has been working wicked mad hours...today is Thursday and he has already worked about 50 hours....this blows.

So since he works all the time and I don't see much of him at all and I have cleaned pretty much every nook and cranny of our house, I'm going home for the weekend. I have work on Friday till 3:30 then I'm driving up. I believe Friday night is dinner with Mom and her man then it's Leigh's birthday so we're going out to celebrate.

Saturday I have to take Leigh to David's Bridal so she can get fitted for her dress and I can show her mine. Then.....HOCKEY!!! So come see the Pittsburgh Penguins play Ottawa at the Wachovia Arena Saturday night so you can see good hockey and ME!!!!!! :)

Then I'm coming back to Hershey on Sunday to see the Pens play at Giant with Simon!! :)

Wow, if this weekend works out, it should be fun. If you want to see me at all during it, comment or call me.

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